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March, 2009 NeglectIts been quite some time since I last wrote in my little blog. I feel rather guilty about letting my thoughts slip away rather than to have them noted :P In my defence, expressing my thoughts was never one of my strong points, nor is sharing them, but as they say, time can change anything. Speaking of which i think I've been neglecting my half written poems too, lol. Hmmm i wonder what I've been up to since the last time i wrote in my blog, lets see.... * Painted my laptop * Sorted out visa issues * Sorted out uni issues * Caught up with Ira and Calvin when they were in town * Ran myself silly around Melbourne * Took 2 out of 3 tests for my drivers license, just need to do the practical then I’m done, then again I still need to get a car :P * Caught up with friends here in melb Well i guess that’s all the stuff i can remember off the top of my head
As usual, I’ve still got tonnes of stuff on my mind that i don’t really put into words. Sigh, someday I’ll just have a perfect day where nothing goes wrong, till then I’m not giving up hope. Till then I’m just gonna go with the flow and take it as it comes :D
Sigh, such mindless blabber and not a single soul would ever set their eyes on them to see the truth between the lines… December, 2008 Attempt 2: Dimplings...After my recent failure at making decent looking dumpling, I decided to give it another shot. This time i just used the skin that I bought from a store in china town, just to save some effort :P So I made the filling, so far so good. Then I slowly made an attempt at wrapping the thing. I carefully made folds and sealed it up, Did this several times and here's what I got
    Attempt 2: Dumplings...
Result......SUCCESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D November, 2008 Attempt 1: Dumplings...I decided to see if i could actually make dumplings today. It started out ok. I made the skin and it turned out just like how my mum makes it. Then I started on the filling and that's where things started to go wrong. I mashed up the pork and the prawns then put then in a bowl with some cornflour and some soy sauce. Here is where the first error happened, at first i didn't actully put the usual soy sauce you use for cooking i put in mushroom soy sauce. Did i mention that i forgot to put in some oil :P Last but not lest i finely chopped some spring onions and added them in. Here's where I made my blunder. I never reall perfected how to wrap dumplings so I decided so just give it a go and hope that it did fall apart. had a bit of help form my house mate though :p
Here's the mess i made
Attempt 1: Dumplings...
Result......FAILED. September, 2008 Book?Can't believe that i actually bought a novel yesterday. The funny thing is that i've actually been reading it for the past 2 days. There must be something wrong with me. The book i bought is titled The Choice by Nicholas Sparks. I've only read about 3 chapters thus far. I'm just surprised that i'm actually reading a book and its not driving me up the wall. August, 2008 NeglectHmm looks like its been a while since i last wrote something in here. Guess there not much to say really, everythings still the same, not much has changed. Maybe I should go outside and sit under a tree and stare in to oblivion. I might just come up with another poem that way. I seriously doubt that anyones ever seen my blog :p :p :p :p Never the less, its still a good way to vent out my thoughts. June, 2008 CakeThis is the first cake that i had made without an electric mixer. Man making a cake with a wisk sure is tiresome. Didn't turn out too bad, probably had something to do with me putting a lot of effort into mixin it :p
Heres a few picture of the cake
mmmmmmmmmmmmm tasty, theres still some left, come and get it while theres still some June, 2008 My RoomFor once in a long time I’m actually in a good mood, and it’s all because of moving into a new home with nice house mates. It’s the first time that I’ve ever felt relaxed since I left home. The feeling of security is something that I’ve missed for quite some time now. The room isn't exactly fully furnished just yet but it’s got everything that I need to live with so far. Here are a few photos of the room.
June, 2008 TPG INTERNETAhh at long last I have internet access once again. Its been like a week since I had access to the net at home. WWWWWWWWIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII May, 2008 The Perfect HeartThe Perfect Heart
Someone who cares, who cares enough. Someone who’s smart, but not too bright. Someone who’s kind and gentle, with a touch of class. Someone who carries a very big heart.
A person who’ll stick with you through thick and thin. A person who cares about you, though oceans apart. A person who makes you feel special, although you act like a sheep. Do all these things actually describe ones heart?
The one that dares not make you cry The one who’ll toy with your emotions, and says sorry as soon as they cross the line. The one who’ll dream about you when you’re not in their arms The one that runs out of words to describe how much you’re loved.
It’s difficult to find someone with the perfect heart A person you can share your deepest most secretive thoughts. The one that will cherish you just because they can It’s heartbreaking to stand alone, and shine as bright as the moon in the clear night skies.
Tomson Yung (20) May 2008 May, 2008 Life in SpringLife in spring
Life in spring is just short of a dream. Looking over hills just to see miles on end At beauty vastly yet gracefully erupting out of what was once lifeless. This sight brings endless joy like an innocent child to its mother.
Cheerful little birds chirping like a choir Just as flowers smile and greet you at your feet. The sun radiates warmth and joy, as its gifts to see our tender little smiles All the ice inside me begins to melt like the change from winter to spring. These are just a select few things that make spring a wonderful dream.
Tomson Yung (20) May 2008 May, 2008 Officially in painSaw the doc this afternoon about the pain. His diagnoses was that I'm too stressed out. Whoop de do, gee I never thought of that. I didn't have much of a choice, my parents were getting worried about me, and they wanted a doctors opinion as to what's wrong with me. I don't have anything against doctors in general, but its just a select few that tick me off. Like the doctor I saw while I was in Toowoomba (Yes I have acne doc, and yes I've tried to take care of it), I walked in with a sore throat and a bit of a temperature and he said that there was nothing wrong with me, so I insisted that he have another look down my mouth. Then and only then did he notice that I was suffering form pain when I swallow. 50 bucks to see a guy you have to tell twice where the problem was before he notices it, and he was rater rude (pointing out someone short comings). Like they say it only takes a few rotten apples to spoil the bunch. May, 2008 All good things must come to an end For once I actually felt that things were looking up for me. Then I was once again punched in the face by reality. Looks like everything that I was looking forward too may crumble before I ever get to see the light of day. Things are not always as they seem, behind every bright light is a source of heat, which may in term lead to destruction. Guess what, I'm back to my typically gloomy self again. Oh what joy it is to be gloomy. Guess it just wasn't meant to be. April, 2008 Induction to WarhmerI only got into the hobby of Warhammer as a way to get my mind off things. So I though the best way to get into it would be to attend one of their game-workshop auctions to pick up a few things on the cheap just to get me started. So I went to the auction with chi and attempted to get a few things on the cheap. I came out with, a hobby beginner set, a few bags of terrain, a few paints, a box of high elf spearmen, and a ticket into some draw in which I didn't know what the prizes were. So they eventually got into that draw and pulled out a ticket for the major prize. They did take quite a while to read out the name on it which seemed strange, and too my surprise it was my crummy handwriting that they couldn't really read. The major prize was a copy of the Limited Edition Warhammer 25th Anniversary Rulebook, worth over AU $350 and there are only 2500 copies produced, and there I was with a copy for free. It’s not such a bad way to start into the hobby of Warhammer. Thought that I’d post something on a good note since most of my blog for this year consisted of anger and sorrow.
April, 2008 Broken SoulBroken Soul
To stand alone like a single solemn figure To have felt the pain of a stake through the heart
To have nowhere and no one to turn to To feel alone, with the sounds of chirp, chirp, chirp being a faint memory.
Joy is but a mask of what is yet to come It conceals itself behind a curtain of bliss as if it were playing hide and seek When it strikes it forces a devastating blow to the heart You become crippled from the knees down with your head up in the clouds.
Believing that you are unfazed you continue on You pass a mirror and stare at it for hours on end What you are searching for is not there, smiling back at you In the reflection you see a figure lifeless on the floor with a knife in its chest.
Life is cruel Life is bitter sweet Life takes you by the hand Then stabs you when you’re bleak.
Tomson Yung (20) April 2008 Dying with painWhat is it so difficult in life to be happy? Why must we feel pain? Is it possible to be a uni student without issues to face? I know I sound weird but this is like one of the places in which I can speak my mind without a care in the world. My life as I know it feels like its falling apart right in my hands. Just last week I though I had everything thought out and had plans to make the rest of my time as a uni student more enjoyable. If you are reading this just a little note, my experience as a uni student in Monash has not been at all enjoyable up to this point in time. I transfer here to basically do year 1, 2 & 3 Subject, let me just say that the time table just looks horrible, and to my surprise one of my lecture times has just been changed Enough about that. Where was I, oh yes my life is falling apart. I'm still without my own place to stay; currently I’m in a home in which one person does not make me feel welcomed at all. To put this plain and simple it has been expressed that I have to go. This week just keeps going and going and going, I just want to see this come to an end. I'm already backed into a corner with nowhere else to run, anymore and I’ll be complexly trampled. I'm just absolutely certain that there will be a few more issues to come my way in the days to come. I just hope that there will be just enough room for me to breathe. Things are really getting pretty tight. Don't come near me I think all my bad luck is contagious. I might accidently bring you down with me, so if you could avoid physical contact with me please do so. Isolation is the best idea for me right now. I can't hurt anyone and nobody can hurt me. I guess that idea beats suicide. I've been told countless times to not think along those lines. Well to those people, I won't do it. To be honest I think some people would be like to see me eradicated off the face of the earth. My only question to them is what did I ever do to you? Did you ever consider what it would be like to live a single day in my shoes, so to speak. Why is it so difficult to be accepted in this world as an individual? Are my action really that hated? What is it about me that you hate so much? I wonder if anyone ever stoped to consider what a person is going through before the passed judgement upon them. Why is it so easy to judge someone and yet so difficult to accept them for who them are. Despite all my efforts to keep my chin up there are many things in this world that like to see otherwise. I am actually attempting with all my might to keep my spirits high, even if you don't believe me. You are entitled to your opinion, so I can't force you to think along the same lines as me. A question to anyone who is reading this what is this pain that you feel in your heart. It’s like something sharp has penetrated through you flesh and into your heart. Is there a word for this? I know I sound a quite dramatic but honestly I feel this pain and allot of sorrow at this point in time. I just wonder why this is all happening to me, and why it is happening to me now, with nobody to really turn to or anywhere to hide. What I guess I’m trying to say is that I’m pleading for help April, 2008 Bent up aggressionDo you ever get the feeling that bad things always seem to happen to you at the worst time? I just learnt of Arm's passing yesterday and the funeral service was today, so I’m already a little upset to begin the day. I had to skip a lecture in order to get to a tutorial that makes up for Anzac day on Friday this week, which means I got a lecture to catch up on. Then I find out that my exam timetable is structured like this: exam on a Friday of the first week (1st year course), second exam on Tuesday following week (1st year course), Wednesday the same week (2nd year course), then Friday the same week (3rd year course). Then to my surprise a lecturer decides to change the lecture time to completely clashes with 2 of my other classes, it’s one of those cases where you end up going to one thing or the other (no idea as to what I’m going to do about it just yet). No seat on the train for the ride home so I have to stand in a crowded train with my heavy bag, and my eyes are irritated by the aroma of the ink on the newspapers. Then to finally top off my day, I get home to be insulted by someone who completely despises me for who I am and doesn’t even bother to understand the situation before labelling me as a nuisance. And here’s the cherry on the cake, I still have nowhere to go or anyone I can really turn to. I know I sound dramatic, but I really don’t know how much more of this I can actually take before I crack, I actually am trying hard not to let this stuff affect me and attempting to search for a bright side. Do remember that you can’t beat the facts; there is always a dark side of the moon. April, 2008 Loss of an old friendI just heard that an old friend from primary school has left our world. Its always sad to see someone go, gonna miss the guy we had fun back in the old days. Arthit Arm Shimofuji had passed away on the 14th of April 2008. May he rest in peace, goodbye me friend. House huntinI’m a little sad that I’m still house hunting at this time of year. Still a single homeless Asian male without a real place to live, such is life for me. Oh well something will turn up sooner or later I hope, I know it’s like the middle of the semester already but I can't help it if I can't find a place that I like. I've got some people helping me with this so something should turn up. Till then I’ll attempt to keep smiling. I have my reason to keep a part of myself hidden. April, 2008 As time goes byI guess it’s time to add another entry into my blog. Well it’s the beginning of April and I’m still homeless as ever, tired as ever, and still a rather bit annoyed with my life at the moment. To be honest I’ve tried looking at the bright side of life, but it all still looks pretty bleak to me. I know I sound like a sore thumb but I think this is probably the best way for me to vent out all of my anger without anyone getting hurt. As long as I don't say anything too revealing on this blog, even then I would probably just say something that may embarrass myself. |
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